Doctors come to work only on Mondays, and on weekends there is not a single doctor to be seen at all, and the patients say they are all out earning money. At this time, if there is a sudden illness, we have to wait for death. I had my blood drawn in the morning and had a PET before that, but no other tests were done. The radiotherapy was not fixed yet, so I waited until July 9th to have the radiotherapy. I found out later that they have so many radiotherapy machines, why not use other ones? Later, my leg kept hurting, and I always suspected that the radiotherapy machine was not working. Because that day to do positioning, radiotherapy department director Li asked my husband, good or wussy, my husband said I do not know, so I asked director Tian, director Tian said, anyway, is the leg, so do a wussy it. My husband still regrets it. Monday after the blood check, Tuesday to play chemotherapy. I remember it was July 1st, because the TV said it was the party’s birthday. The chemo was the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced in my life, and I still have palpitations when I think about it. Later relapsed in the General Hospital of the Armed Forces doctors said to play chemotherapy again, really jumped off a building have the heart, just do not want to suffer that kind of crime, too painful. In fact, before there is a psychological preparation, see many patients in the fight well, they also said how uncomfortable how can not eat what. The most obvious thing I saw was that they were gray and had no hair or very little. Director Tian also said that there will be nausea, vomiting, saying that this drug has a lot of side effects. In fact, everyone has experienced nausea and vomiting, and many drugs are labeled with such side effects. But the pain caused by chemotherapy drugs can never be described by words and language, and people who have not experienced it can never imagine the pain. That’s why I say that doctors don’t understand the pain at all. No doctor will ever experience what it’s like to have chemotherapy himself. Doctors know about this drug through clinical trials, through the patient’s oral narrative, there is no such empathy. This is why some patients would rather listen to their patients than trust their doctors. Patients will communicate better with each other. Because they have experienced the same pain. After the first day of treatment, I did not feel anything obvious. Director Tian said to eat if you can, don’t force yourself to eat if you can’t, but you must drink more water. From morning to afternoon, I do not know what these drugs are used for. The nurses are pretty, but they are all as cold as ice and refuse to say a word, so we call them Cold Beauty. Instead, the patients came to me and told me that this was for liver protection, this was for stomach protection, this was for antiemetic, and this was for chemotherapy, and this was the most expensive of all the drugs, Jianze and Cisplatin. The next day, I felt uncomfortable and irritable. I thought I would be fine in a couple of days. But I didn’t expect that the greater pain was still to come. On the third day, I didn’t want to eat, I didn’t want to eat anything, I didn’t want to drink any water, but I was so thirsty that I had to drink, and I vomited after drinking, even though there was nothing in my stomach. Those liver, stomach, antiemetic drugs do not work, what B6, omeprazole, etc., the more you play, the more you vomit, and then a few courses of Shuangchengbowei and B6 I do not play. In your vomiting at the same time, your stomach is uncomfortable at the same time, you will feel every blood vessel, every pore, every nerve is so painful, so you will unconsciously think of four words: life is worse than death.