Xiaolan is a kind and innocent girl, living in a small mountain village in the Yimeng Mountains, is a green mountain green water nurtured camellia, a pair of big eyes as if with the sparkling light of the mountain spring. The life of the mountain village is not rich, but peaceful and happy. Five miles from the village there is a small school, from the south of the village over a small hill to get there. The school was built halfway up the mountain, with a dozen school rooms, because only children from three nearby villages went to school here, but it seemed quite spacious. At the age of eight, Lan was finally able to go to school, carrying her mother’s hand-made schoolbag, and was overjoyed to go over the hill with a few friends and sit in a classroom warmed by the sun, just as she had imagined countless times before, lying outside the window. When she was in the second grade, her father bought a stationery box for her from the city, and she was so happy that she had to hold it in her arms at night. When she went to school the next day and looked at the envious eyes of her classmates, Xiaolan felt as if the whole world was revolving around her. After class, all the students came to look at it, you touched it, I touched it. “It’s so beautiful, if only I had one too” “I’ll see, I’ll see” “Don’t grab, don’t grab, I’ll see it first”, all talking, you and I, grabbing and grabbing, and then snapped it and dropped it to the ground. to the ground. Xiaolan was in a hurry, picked it up and saw that a piece of paint had fallen off, so she fainted. The class teacher came over and saw Xiaolan on the ground, twitching and foaming at the mouth. The class teacher came over and saw Xiao Lan on the ground, convulsing and foaming at the mouth. He hurriedly asked people to hold Xiao Lan’s limbs and kept pinching her. After school, the class teacher called Xiaolan to the office and told her that it might be epilepsy and that she should go to the hospital for a checkup. I was walking home alone, a few yellow leaves struggling on the branches under the sunset glow, with a bit of desolation and detachment. In a trance, it was as if she had been abandoned by the world. Since then Xiaolan’s world seems to have lost its color, her classmates are not playing with her, she can only watch others happily playing, alone in the corner licking her wounds, like a wounded beast. Because the family has a younger brother to go to school, the family can not afford the tuition fees for two children, Xiaolan dropped out of junior high school, the year she was 17 years old. She spent more than a year living at home with her back to the sky, watching the sun rise and set every day, watching her parents busy on the ridge, occasionally looking up and seeing the airplanes passing through the clouds, imagining the prosperity of the big cities as her teacher had told her, and the figures busy in the skyscrapers and shuttling under the neon lights, as if they had come into her heart from the distant sky. At the age of 19, she left her hometown where she had been living for more than ten years and took the train to Qingdao with the blessings of her family and her longing for the city life. When she finally arrived at the place she had fantasized about countless times, she couldn’t help but feel happy when she looked at the traffic around her. After finding a good place to live, I rushed to the job market to look for a job. Because of the high consumption in Qingdao, she had very little money left after paying the rent of more than 1,000 yuan. The first time she came to the job market, there were a lot of people, probably because it was a weekend. She interviewed for several jobs, but they were not ideal, because she had no diploma and no work experience, and she was not very talkative. For the first time she had doubts about her choice, is this environment suitable for her life? Xiao Hui and the factory director came together today to recruit a few female sewing workers, interviewed a few are not suitable, either the wage is too high, or to look like the handy kind. The company is annoyed to look around, see Xiaolan came over, head down, red face, whispered a word. Xiao Hui had a momentary trance, the girl was so shy, big eyes shining with clear waves, like a frightened deer, curious about the world but afraid of being hurt. Little Hui did not know why he read this from these eyes, because he seemed to have forgotten to think. “Fill out this form and go to this place next week for another interview,” the workshop director had finished the interview. Watching the girl leave, Xiao Hui felt a little disappointed, as if he had lost something precious. In the next few days, Xiao Hui was a bit disoriented, always making mistakes at work, tossing and turning late at night, those big bright eyes in the mind, lingering. The next day invited the workshop director for a meal, so Xiaolan became his colleague. “How do you like it lately?” “Not bad” “You’re from Linyi, right?” “Yes.” “We are from the same hometown, are we okay tonight? Together with a meal” slowly familiar with the later, they climbed Laoshan together, together in the seaside walk, two hearts also slowly close. Xiaolan’s kindness and tenderness touched Xiaohui’s heartstrings, so he could not help but want to protect her. Finally, one day, Xiao Hui bravely put the deep-seated heart of the words said: “marry me” silence “do not you like me?” “No” “Then why?” “I’m sick.” “What kind of sickness?” “Epilepsy.” “I don’t care.” “Really?” “Well, I will spend the rest of my life protecting you and never let you get hurt again, believe me.” At that moment, Ran was moved to tears, and a light shone in her big eyes – it was happiness. At the end of 2006, after returning home, they held a wedding. The moment she put on the wedding dress, Xiaolan felt that God had taken pity on her and gave her such a good husband. Her requirements are very simple, as long as the two people can love each other, have a cute little baby, and live a life of peace and quiet is very satisfied. However, it is such a simple happiness ultimately did not stay. Xiao Hui’s family originally set him a marriage, is a girl called Xiao Li of the same village, people are quite hardworking, good-looking, both parents are quite satisfied, but Xiao Hui just do not like, so have been dragging not married. After Xiaohui and Xiaolan got married, every time they came home, Xiaoli would come to visit and find Xiaohui’s sister to play. She didn’t know who said that Xiaolan was sick, so she deliberately said loudly to Xiaolan when Xiaohui was not at home: “Do you know that she has a nervous disease? Your brother is really blind with her”, Xiaolan fainted again when she was excited. The family worked for a while to wake up Xiaolan, Xiaohui was so angry that he slapped Xiaoli and drove her out of the door. Xiao Hui’s parents went to the hospital and asked the doctor to divorce them after knowing that Xiao Lan’s disease could be hereditary. “Why didn’t you tell the family she had this disease before you got married?” “What’s the big deal? It’s not a regular occurrence, it’s nothing, and it can be cured.” “Did you know that this disease can be passed on to children? Other than that, we’ll follow you, but this time there is no discussion, must leave!” Eventually Xiao Hui did not resist the pressure of the family, in 2008, they did the divorce procedures. Because she did not want to face Xiaohui, Xiaolan found a new job. Now, Xiaolan went back to her old life alone, she arranged her time to the full, not allowing herself to have time to remember, to pain. But in the midnight dream, those once beautiful life, those once dull but happy days, engraved in the depths of memory, suddenly touched, tears wet the lapel. I look back, as if I had a dream.