As I walked to bed 23 to check in, my mind kept playing out the movie, imagining how well I could do as director and male #1.
The pathology report was in full view: Indolent cell carcinoma. (Extremely high malignancy)
The ultrasound and CT report also already showed multiple metastases in the abdominal cavity. It would also be good to explain why the patient has been bloating.
At 56 years old, he was in the middle age of modern society, and this result first shattered the family’s heart.
It is better not to say, doctor, you give him a less serious diagnosis based on his condition, let’s not let my father know.
The eldest son’s eyes were already red before he finished speaking.
To say or not to say is a difficult question in front of the cancer family. It is nothing but the use of medical knowledge to make a sensible cover-up and do a good job as director and male 1.
Recalling the scene in the doctor’s office just now, I had walked up to bed 23, and the smile of the old gentleman at this time reminded me of my years of study in the United States.
In the face of illness and death, foreign countries are much more open than domestic ones, and it may be the reason that foreign countries speak more directly than the national ones are subtle. It may also be that the beliefs abroad are different from those of the Chinese.
Anyway, during my study period in the United States, the teachers who taught me always communicated with the patients when they got the medical results, and cancer was only one type of disease.
Because the patient has the right to be informed, no one has the right to determine the health of others.
When I came back to China for treatment, I was confused for a while. I once thought that if I had a terminal disease, I would live in confusion and let people cajole me, or I would know the result and be terrified, or I would achieve some inspirational speeches and deeds. It’s hard to say for sure.
In the absence of clarity, I still obeyed the family’s opinion and gave old Zhang a diagnosis of peptic ulcer.
Don’t worry, Zhang, it’s an ulcer in the stomach and small intestine that can’t digest the food inside, so it’s a bit blocked, don’t worry, take your medicine and you’ll get better.
Old Zhang’s tense face immediately soothed, listening to the doctor’s words, I was relieved.
A sense of guilt and accomplishment instantly rose to my heart in tandem, and the feeling in my chest was extremely complex and subtle. I tried not to look at old Zhang’s eyes, but crouched down and felt old Zhang’s pulse, telling him that it was fine and that everything was recovering.
Think of a song lyrics: say words that do not mean, with a mask of hypocrisy, always at the end of the ocean, see another world,…… heard the sailor said, the storm this pain is nothing, dry your tears, do not be afraid, at least we have a dream ……
When I think of this sentence, I am also relieved that.
My teacher taught me that for tumor patients, gastric cancer patients, different types, we also have different treatment plans: the treatment plan of cooperation between Chinese and Western medicine includes: first, if the patient has not metastasized and can have the opportunity of surgical treatment, then we Chinese medicine will actively make surgical contact to allow this precious opportunity to be administered, because the only thing that can completely cure gastric cancer is surgical removal; second type, if it has metastasized or lost the chance of resection, then we have to see if this type of stomach cancer tumor can be treated with chemotherapy and radiotherapy, and at the same time use Chinese medicine to relieve the side effects of radiotherapy and chemotherapy and prolong life; if, the third type, that is, the chance of resection for radical cure is lost, and the effect of radiotherapy and chemotherapy is not good, and the patient has not given up on himself, then, at this time, we have to give the patient –hope.
At this time, everything we do is for hope and dream. “What is this pain in the storm, dry your tears, don’t be afraid, at least we have a dream ……”
In “The Art of the Heart”, the conversation between doctors, dwells on whether to open the knife or not. In reality, it is not the patient’s body that we treat with the knife, but their psyche and soul. The prescription we prescribe, this prescription without efficacy, is the most important prop as a director and actor, the main idea of interpretation delivery, which gives hope to the patient and hope to the doctor.
Holding the old Zhang’s hand, I squeezed his bones hard, and the heat of my palm conveyed the doctor’s message. And nodding toward the family members beside the bed, the older son’s confused and sluggish gaze, too, seemed to have an aura all of a sudden, and there was a warm current that ran up to my heart.
Rest well, tomorrow will be fine ……