Enjoy Cancer Enjoy Life

When you read the title “Enjoying Cancer”, you may think it is unbelievable. But what I’m saying is that when you lose your health, the sweetness and happiness that normal people can easily enjoy will not be available to you. For this reason, as a cancer patient, I had to lower the standard of my own enjoyment, determine on the edge of life and death, and make the minutes and seconds of life wonderful by enjoying cancer. Two years ago, at the age of 53, I unfortunately received this notice: early stage hypo-differentiated adenoid lung cancer! Cancer, destroying my healthy body, depriving me of the right to work normally and destroying my happy life: it also tested my guts and my mental capacity, prompting me to re-examine my life and sort out the concept of life. When I was in good health I never thought of death, never thought of what would happen when threatened by death. Now, after suffering from a kind of lung cancer with rapid deterioration, rapid proliferation and metastasis, and high mortality rate, I should think about the problems related to death. Death is a taboo word for many people, yet it is a necessity that every person who comes to this world and is still alive has no way to avoid and escape. There is life must die. No one is immune. Whether it is the princes and nobles, or the common people, and even this poor scholar, will eventually die. The difference is just one day earlier and one day later. Some people say that many cancer patients are scared to death. Whether or not someone is scared to death by the disease, I am not afraid of death. In my opinion, life is the beginning of death, death is the continuation of life, and death is just a change of life form. Since I have cancer, it is better to live with it. To enjoy cancer and be a good patient, the mindset is the most important thing. It is said that an optimistic and open mind will improve the immune function of the body, which is conducive to physical fitness: whereas pessimism and negative emotions will reduce the function of the immune system and lead to aggravation of the disease. In the past, I seldom went to the kitchen. This time there is plenty of time, I will often open the recipe, find a few simple frying and frying, playing a symphony of pots and pans and spoons, and appreciate their own clumsiness, but did not spend a lot of effort to put on the table in the color, smell and shape are not good “works”, tasting sometimes delicious and sometimes not very tasty sweet and salty north and south or spicy and sour. Or spicy and sour in the east and west. And then boil a few kinds of health soup, elegantly tasting, so painful, so cozy. Leisurely, with a good friend, soak a pot of Tieguanyin, learn some work tea play, but also a Guan Gong patrol, Han Xin point of the army. Brothers and sisters pouring out their hearts, exchange their feelings about life; days north and south, kan all kinds of anecdotes. From time to time to make fun of each other, leisurely. Surgery cut off a lobe of my lungs, breathing always feel that the gas is not enough, the amount of activity is a little bit bigger, talk a little longer, will be short of breath, can not breathe, therefore, fatigue from time to time to patronize. I heard that singing can improve lung function, improve lung capacity, although I can’t find any syllables, but also with the heart of the resonance voice, to a “rolling Yangtze River East Passing Water ……” read a few prose poetry, between the rhythm and staccato, to integrate themselves into the poetic mood, to express their feelings. In the rhythm and staccato, I put myself into the mood of poetry and literature, express my feelings, and have a good time. In terms of physical exercise, I like to meditate and practice Zen, breathing and visualization. These have the effect of dredging the meridians, but also can make a person’s state of mind calm, cultivate sentiment. I also like to play table tennis for a few hours every day to improve my physical fitness. On the 30th day after the operation, I picked up the paddle, but just after a few swings, I was out of breath and sweating profusely, and the surgical incision was in severe pain due to the pull of the twisting of my body. …… I had to stop. After another 10 days, I swung on again, and after just a dozen rounds, I was out of breath. Stopped to take a break and hit again, and so on and off for more than an hour. During the course of the rehab workout, each exercise-induced shortness of breath led to an overdose of physical recovery. Now, my physical condition has greatly improved, with a rosy complexion and a lot of energy. People who meet me don’t believe that I am a cancer patient and can’t tell that I am someone who has lung cancer and had the lobes of my lungs removed. I am optimistic and live my life without any burden to greet the brilliant sunrise every day! Enjoying cancer has been the most rewarding experience and asset in my life’s journey. Those who have experienced the threat of death can feel the preciousness of life more deeply and can only sigh that it is a blessing to be alive!