Why is he afraid to eat meat?

  Sitting in front of me is a twenty-year-old armed police fighter, with a board-inch, rather rugged-looking, but tired, slightly lowered head, hanging eyelids looking at the ground, occasionally lifting the eyes, the gaze is also dark. I also learned from his comrades that since the earthquake relief in Sichuan, he gradually could not eat, especially meat dishes, the sight of vomiting, not to mention eating. When rescuing the wounded, he was not as active as before, only helping to dig the rubble when he did not see the wounded, and when he saw the wounded, he did not dare to touch their limbs, nor did he dare to lift them, but only avoided from afar, or looking for the next rescue target, and continued to dig the rubble. His comrades perceived his anomaly, and contacted our psychological rescue team through a media reporter to see what was wrong with him.  ”Can you tell us about your problem?” I asked him gently.  He seemed very reluctant to speak, and after a few moments of hesitation, he began to say in a low, slightly childish voice: “I don’t know what’s wrong, but I can’t eat, and I can’t look at dishes with meat. I was very hungry, but when I opened the lunch box and saw the meat inside, I wanted to vomit, I had no appetite at all.” Here he said, his expression pain, with his hands cupped face elbows propped up knees lowered.  I was silent for a while, waiting for his emotions to calm down a little, also leaned down, eyes as parallel to his line of sight, slowly asked him: “What do those meat remind you of?”  He dropped his hands, opened his eyes, looked forward aimlessly, then spat out two words without expression, “Corpses.” A moment later, he continued, “Those bloody corpses.”  I couldn’t help but suck in a cold breath and sit up straight, not knowing what to say for a moment. I knew their mission was to save people, to dig those survivors out from under the collapsed houses, but often it was the people who had been killed and died that were dug up. They were killed by the relentless collapse of the rubble, stopped breathing in a state of shock, and some even died. The helpless, desperate expressions, those broken and deformed limbs, those bloodstained bodies, for a young soldier in his youth, life and life still have unlimited expectations and fantasies of what a tragic scene ah! I feel my heart is convulsing, a little breathless. In the face of this harsh reality, perhaps everyone will feel the fragile, even ugly side of life, but this soldier in front of me obviously have some other associations. I took a deep breath to relax myself and refocus on what the person in front of me was thinking and feeling.  ”Can you tell me what you felt when you saw those bodies?”  He looked up, gave me a quick oblique glance, and immediately lowered his head without making a sound. But I caught the alarm and distrust in his gaze.  ”Do you have any concerns about talking to me about these things? Are you afraid I’ll look down on you or give you the word? I think in such an unusual disaster scene, people just might have unusual feelings. So, any psychological reaction you have is understandable and acceptable. Talk to me about it.”  He looked at me again, relaxed a bit, lowered his head as usual, but this time said in an urgent tone, “I don’t know if it’s right to think this way, but that’s what I think. When I saw those corpses, I felt that they were not people like me, after all, as if they were animals that had been killed!” At the end he was very excited, his tone raised very high, and finally stopped and covered his mouth with both hands, his eyes fearful, his expression complex, as if he had not said what he just said, as if he should not say such words.  I also did not expect him to say such words. But this also confirmed my suspicions, and for a moment I seemed to understand why he could not eat meat. I nodded my head, gazed at him and said slowly, “You can’t forgive yourself for thinking that way, it makes you feel inhuman, doesn’t it?”  ”Well,” he agreed, shedding two lines of tears and looking guilty.  ”But this is how you really feel, as long as it is true is reasonable, reasonable is normal. People and animals are supposed to be the same flesh and blood, so this may be a natural association. What do you say?”  He nodded.  ”So you don’t have to blame yourself for thinking that.” After a pause, I added, “But can you tell me why you have such an association?”  He took a deep breath and finally looked up, with teardrops still on his face, and recalled, “My family is from Inner Mongolia. When I was a child, I would pass a slaughterhouse on the way to school, which every day would kill some cattle, sheep or something. Once after school, and small friends to go in to see, saw the cow was killed when the fear of the expression, and the fishy smell. I felt so stimulated that I never went there again.”  ”Well, and then what?” I encouraged him to go on.  ”This time when I came to fight the earthquake, when I was digging up the bodies and mutilated limbs of those who were killed, I saw the expressions of some people, and I don’t know how I instantly remembered the expressions I had seen as a child when the cows were killed, so like.” His breathing became rapid again, and after a pause, he added: “And that unpleasant smell, also very similar.”  ”So you got confused, as if you couldn’t tell the difference between memory and reality.”  ”Hmm. And as soon as I saw the meat in the meal I remembered these two scenes and became nauseous and vomited. Doctor, am I going crazy?” He asked me nervously.  ”I think this is a temporary stress reaction that occurs when you are overworked and under high mental stress for a long time, and then you are subjected to strong visual and olfactory stimuli, and the unpleasant memories of your childhood are evoked. Many normal people can also develop it. When we were in medical school, some of us didn’t want to eat meat after a lab class on human anatomy. But after that, they were fine.”  ”Does it get better?” He asked skeptically.  I nodded and continued, “But since you’re having a strong reaction, I can give you a quick eye movement desensitization treatment to help you recover.”  After obtaining his consent, I administered rapid eye movement desensitization therapy, a treatment technique that is effective for stress reactions that occur in patients with acute trauma. After it was done, he said, “Now I feel much calmer when I think about those scenes. But I still don’t want to eat meat now.”  I said, “It is now temporarily can not eat meat, you do not have to worry too much. As long as the combination is reasonable, such as eating more soy products, eating vegetarian can also maintain a balanced nutrition. There is no need to force yourself now. I believe that with time, you will get better.”  ”Confident?” I asked him with a smile.  ”Hmm. Confident. Thank you, Doctor.” For the first time, he had a light smile on his face.  Comment: Rapid Eye Movement Desensitization Therapy, also known as Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, or EMDR for short, is a therapy in which the therapist eliminates some of the psychological and physical symptoms of the trauma by having the patient narrate or dwell on the memories of past traumatic situations while paying attention to the process of rapid eye movements that mimic dreaming in the therapeutic setting, and by integrating the trauma complexes into a new cognitive system, leading to personality This is a therapy for personality transformation. This therapy is characterized by a high degree of efficiency and economy. In general psychotherapy, it can be used with half the effort, provided that the root cause is identified. In post-disaster psychological crisis interventions, the trauma is clear and does not need to be searched for, as long as the relationship is well established and the patient is guided to talk, EMDR can be used to treat it quickly.